Describes EXACTLY how I feel, except from a girl's point of view.


I'm Missing You by Bobby Tinsley

The nights are long, my days are cold
Without the warmth you provide me when I hold
You in my arms, feels so long ago
When you were there
I think a teardrop just fell down

I really wanna come to see you
I really really wish I could
Maybe in a couple of weeks
It’s only a couple of weeks
But even though I get to
It’s 14 days I gotta get through (it’s too many days babe)
And I’m really really missing you

And I miss, miss, miss
I’m missing you
And I don’t know how I’m gonna make it through
But I gotta, gotta, stay strong for us two
I’m a man, it’s a job that I gotta do

So I go outside and I fake a smile
But if they only knew just how many miles
Were between love so true
I really couldn’t cope the way that we do
And I’m really really missing you

Baby when you’re near
All of my visions clear
But like a magic show
I blink and then you disappear

And I frequently envision how it would be
To have you alone with me
Give me a moment so I can breathe

I really wanna come to see you
Baby I wish I could (wish I could)
Maybe in a couple of weeks (it’s only two weeks)
It's only a couple of weeks (but the problem is)

But even though I get to
It’s 14 long days I don't have you (it’s too many days babe)
And I’m really really missing you

And I miss, miss, miss
I’m really really missing you
And I don’t know how I’m gonna make it through
But I gotta, gotta, stay strong for us two
I’m a man, it’s a job that I gotta do

So I go outside and I fake a smile
But if they only knew just how many miles
Were between love so true
I really couldn’t cope the way that we do
And I’m really really missing you

'Cause maybe one day babe
Not too far away
We can turn all our dreams into memories

Baby we'll have that home
Spiral stairs, all that we share
So many nights, over the phone

I really wanna come to see you
Baby you know I do
Maybe in a couple of weeks (I’ll try)
It's only a couple of weeks (can’t promise)

But even know I get to
Still don't wanna be away from you (it’s too many days babe)
And I’m really really missing you

And I miss, miss, miss
I’m missing you
And I don’t know how I’m gonna make it through
But I gotta, gotta, stay strong for us two
I’m a man, it’s a job that I gotta do

So I go outside and I fake a smile
But if they only knew just how many miles
Were between love so true
I really couldn’t cope the way that we do
And I’m really really missing you

Forgotten to bring my phone out today. Usually I'll be at a loss cos my phone's like my life. On normal days, I know that if I don't get to see him that day, the phone's our only communication so I'll always make sure my phone's beside me. But strangely, I didn't feel that way, not even a little bit. Maybe because I know it's impossible for him to contact me in the afternoon, so I won't be so eager to check my phone every now and then just to see if he texted or called.

Today's only day one and I'm feeling terrible. I know during the days ahead, there'll be lots of sleepless nights, lots of crying myself to sleep, lots of misses for him, lots of feelings of loneliness. The text messages are all I have to keep me company throughout this hard period.

It's really hard. But I know I'll learn to be more independent as the days goes by, and I guess that's what he hopes for me too.
Upon hearing that he won't be able to celebrate my birthday with me this year, the usual me will sulk. But I've learnt to look at things from the different point of view - instead of sulking because he can't accompany me on such an important day, why not think of the days before that when he can celebrate with me in advance, and the free days he could spend with me to make up for it? I know I'll be a much more happier person in this way, and that he'll be a happy boy too :) I'm gonna do what it takes to make him happy, and for this relationship to stay strong.

What I'm gonna focus on now is my studies, and not eating too much. Haha. See baby, I'm listening to you!

Loves.

A little late but still, thank you love :)

I wanna eat 老婆餅 again.
I think I'll just eat that whenever I'm unhappy/stressed, whenever I feel like bingeing.

It's not fattening... is it?
TELL ME IT'S NOT. T.T

Was telling baby I'll make sure I'll slim down by the two years he's in NS. So I'll not be sitting around lazing while he's inside.
I'm gonna mug and exercise like siao, concurrently!

Time is precious, you know.